And the day isnt even over.
It doesn’t have to be anything dramatic like snapping a leg or losing a loved one. It’s the seemingly unrelated things. When you lose trust with someone, when someone you respect talks you down, when you love someone and it goes to waste. It hurts. A lot. It’s a mind numbing brain-shattering pain. In my worst moments, I often wish for a swimming pool filled with acid that I could dive into, just to drown out that pain. I think the feeling of my skin being scalded off my face; my hair being scorched into inky blackness and the burning blindness in my eyes would be far bearable to that one. I would joyously swim right to the bottom. Because at least I know that the acid pain will end. I’m never sure of the other kind.
What worse is that is hurt comes unexpected and stays, like an unwelcome grand aunt. One needs to nurse it out of one’s system. It goes eventually. But takes a little bit of you with it. You go back to life, knowing it’s going to be a little bit worse in some areas. And you pray that doesn’t happen. And you pray that your prayers are heard.
Anyone who has felt this way before, I feel for you. I pray your prayers come true.
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“Anyone who has felt this way before, I feel for you”.…….have u been that way?? It seems like it, and u find it difficult to relate to someone again in the same way, that u may get hurt again or may not b able to handle ur feelings if something goes wrong again,
but u still crave for the same feeling of belonging, where u love someone selflessly ….where u care for someone more than u ever cared for urself
So true, u eventually get out with something lost………. Lost forever
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